These past few month I feel like the word forgiveness has been thrown in my face on more than one occasion.
I wish I could research this topic before blogging about it, but forgiveness has nothing to do with facts, or statistics. It's a heart matter.
When do you know if you've truly forgiving someone for hurting you, or someone you care for?
Saying the words "I forgive you" really don't mean anything.
Kind of like, saying the words "I love you" don't really make you love someone.
I am not sure what is more difficult; Trying to earn someones forgiveness, or forgiving someone.
Neither one do you have any control over.
I cannot make you forget about how I hurt you. I cannot help channel your thoughts differently. I cannot take back the things that I did.
And you cannot force yourself to forget. You cannot pretend that you don't hurt, or that it doesn't make you sad every single day.
So, how can you really forgive someone?
Forgiveness and trust go hand in hand. I think that is where the difficulty lies.
When you are forced to make a decision on whether or not to forgive someone, that means that you have trusted them enough to be able to hurt you.
You have trusted them with your feelings, or heart, or even life.
And they have done something to betray that trust.
In order to be able to really forgive somebody, you must trust them with yourself yet again.
You have to feel that they are worthy of that trust.
I wish forgiveness was something that you could buy, or even see.
Maybe it'd be easier.
We are supposed to forgive people.
Especially the ones we love.
It is the trust that makes it so difficult.
People do deserve second chances. No matter how difficult that may be.
Time really does heal all wounds.
Eventually, you will forgive.
You will trust me with yourself again.
&&Thats the Truth of The Matter.
Sooo....
ReplyDeleteI love you.
It's not easy when you are the one that has to do the forgiving... I suppose Daniel is not the only one to blame in matters of this bullshit that is going on.
He wants me to let him in again, and to trust him, but that is scary. Like I said in my blog. I have built this wall in the past four months, and I'm not ready to let anyone tear that wall down. Idk.
It's something to think about for me.
"I am not sure what is more difficult; Trying to earn someones forgiveness, or forgiving someone."
ReplyDeleteVery True.
I like it.
It seems like if your the person trying to earn forgiveness then your trying to tear down the wall of the other, and if your doing the forgiving you get to tear down the wall, yet that is what makes it hard because then you can go as fast or slow as you want...
Shayla I'm sorry your going through such a hard time right now. Remember to protect your heart with whatever decision you make!!
Love you girlieeessss :)