(This is no criticism of anyone I love)
I log into facebook and my news feed is filled with acquaintances with new pics of their bellies, or newborns, etc.
My roommate/bestfriend has a 6 month old baby.
My 18year old sister is getting married.
I always tell Marqiese that I wanna get married, and have a baby.
Truth is...
I DONT!
Not right now.
Ashlea has to find a babysitter every time she wants to go do anything. She can't run out to her car unless she takes Kennedy with her. Don't get me wrong; Kennedy is beautiful and I have seen how much joy she has brought to Ashlea. But its crazy to me how life completely changes in just 9 months.
Shayla is getting married in April and at first I was jealous.
But I am no longer jealous.
Marqiese explained to me that hopes he has for our wedding, and it makes me wanna wait even longer.
I want something beautiful.
I dont want to have to sacrifice anything because I can't afford it.
Shayla and Daniel will have a beautiful wedding no doubt.
But I am glad I don't have to plan it.
I am glad Marqiese and I can pick up and go to Vegas for 5 days with no worries. School and work is enough for me.
By the time I have kids, I want to be stable; married, financially comfortable, have a home, etc.
Everyone says they dont want to be old when their kids are growing up. Well me either. But I also want to enjoy my young adult-hood!
If you love someone, and they love you, there is no rush!
SLOW DOWN!
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